Saturday, July 31, 2010
31.7.10
Today it's the 1st of August...
Time indeed flew past fast...
And this also means that, i have not much time left...
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It was supposed to be a fine day, that day...
but after all, it doesn't seems to look fine...
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Thanks for telling me that...
letting me know what's happening around...
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I wanted to ask you a question:
" Do you have feelings for me?"
Ans:_____
If i have the courage to ask you this question, i would...
but i dont dare...
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You told me, your heart broke...
you were sad after you get to know it...
why, why do your heart broke?
i'm just like a brother of yours...
you dont need to get heart broken,
but why do you get sad?
i'm puzzled...
i just want to know how you feel?
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There's someone out there trying to ruin our friendship..
dont you feel anything?
do you still think, you still want to be friend with that person..?
you told me nothing was wrong... but i'm sure there must be...
I'm disappointed...
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Yes, we talk alot that night..
And i'm thankful to you that you are honest to me.
I may not be your cup of tea but i'm willing to wait for you...
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You may not treat me as someone who is important to you...
but at least i'm someone who care for you...
someone who trust you..
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If that person cheated you once...
will you give him another chance..
by his action, you are able to tell how a person is he like...
but yet you still cant get over him...
asking you to forget, it's impossible, i kow..
but dont ever hurt yourself...
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You always said, there will be no future for us...
but, how do you know?
Not a chance was given to me to prove or show it...?
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As i walk home that day, honestly speaking...
i was very sad...
i felt i'm at a loss of wat to do...
my mind kept thinking of what you told me...
yes, i agree that i was abit angry...
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i dont know, i dont know, i dont know!!!!
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I seriously like you!
And i will wait for you!
that all i can say...
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Am i somebody that is important to you?
Think think think...
no words can express
my love for you
Monday, July 26, 2010
26.7.10
Who am i?
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I'm maybe a lonely person...
i do things alone...
not that i like to be alone, but just that i dont seems to exits in people's life...
an unimportant person to anybody...
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I'm maybe a shy person...
i dont really like to talk, and like to think alot....
so called an emo....
letting my imaginations run wild when i'm bored, sad or alone...
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I'm maybe a bad guy...
who smoke, fight, drink and gamble last time...
and it's hard for my new friends to believe that i've change...
But, it's really up to them whether they believe me or not...
trust is very important in a friendship or relationship...
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I'm maybe a patience guy...
I've tolerated for 2 years plus...
tolerating every single thing...
i know it's not good, but what can i do?
i dont know how to express out my feelings to anyone...
saying nvm, it's ok, closing one eye, and just walk off...
i'm just escaping and pushing everything down my heart...
I hate quarreling...
another reason why i dont get angry...
though it hurts but..
nvm...
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I may be unsure of many things...
but,
There is one thing i know, for sure!
That is my feelings for you!
I know i can say i like you as many times as i could...
but,
do you like me?
Ans:______
do you trust me?
Ans:______
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I dont say things that i cant do it...
a promise is a pormise!
I can wait for you my entire life!
but...
you think i couldn't right?
Ans:_____
you take it as i'm joking right?
Ans:_____
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No ones know what a person is thinking...
but everyone knows what they want,
and will try hard to get it!
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Everyday, i pray to God.
I ask him...:
"Dear god, Would you lend me a hand?"
I only ask him this..
there was no response...
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Just a chance from you"
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"It takes three second to say, I love you!
Three hours to explain it,
and a life time to prove it!"
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Health:
Not good...
if one day, i'm gone...
i wonder who will miss me and cry...
o,o?
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Smiles reader(:
no words can express
my love for you
Friday, July 23, 2010
23.7.10
Mood-less day...
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I want to give you( a unique person) five gifts:
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First, the gift of listening.
Being your good listening ear...
sitting quietly by your side, and no complaining...
No interrupting, and just listen to you.
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Second, the gift of affection.
Being the first or only person to comfort you when you are down.
Being generous with the appropriate hugs, kisses, and pats on the back
Being the only one that care for you
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Third, the gift of laughter.
Sharing funny stories and jokes with you all the time.
And after that i would tell you:
"I love to laugh with you!"
Seeing you smile, makes me happy.
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Fourth, the gift of a written note.
Expressing in a brief of how important you are to me!
How do i feel about you?
-You are cheerful, friendly, adorable, superb, smart....
Why i needed you in my life?
-You make me smile all the time, and without you, i melt, die...
What can be done to make our friendship better?
-Stay in contact, and maintain the good friendship we have now
Who are you to me?
-I treat you as a close friend, more likely to be said, my sister!
When will our friendship ends?
-Never. Even if i dead, you are still my closest friend, you are irreplaceable.
Where will i be?
-Always by your side, like a guardian angel, protecting to you for any harm.
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Fifth, the gift of a compliment.
Just by sincerely saying:
"Well done"
"You look great today"
"You are special"
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just few words to make someone smile.
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Every night i pray to God,
I demand nothing but just for him to lend me a hand.
I may say i know which path i'm taking..
i maybe full of obstacles and dangeruos...
but still i gave it a try..
as i always say,
if you never try, you will never know the outcome...
dont predict the outcome, it may somehow lead you to the wrong way.
but when you try, be remind that, you have to face the outcome no matter what it is.
Everyone have the opportunities to make decisions.
Think carefully, choose correctly, and be prepare to accept the outcome.
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Wish that all my friends,
would live their life happily.(:
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byebye~tired-.-
no words can express
my love for you
Thursday, July 22, 2010
22.7.10
Things ain't going smoothly nowsaday....
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Studies:
I hate school!!!
Serious hate it!
What for i go to school, when i can study at home?
Wake up early in the morning,
go to school..
done all my homework... hand in to teacher and went to sleep...
-.-"
math lessons..
doing different question from the class...
ask teacher...
teacher call me to try out others first...
while she figue out the solution...
ice cream....>,<"
Physic:
everyone like bullying the teacher...
ask teacher tys question, he attend to other students instead...
then what for i do tys???
Chem:
Miss alot of lessons le...
got no idea ow to do the calculation of molar mass...
enjoyed her lesson but sorry, just dont like going to school....
Eng:
Compo, one after another....
every week doing compo and compre...
sick and tired of it le...
sleep in class, got nag....-.-"
Sorry teacher... not i dont want to listen...
is i've got what you mean!
haiis....
SS:
started revision for other subject expect social studies...
dont know how to revise on that...
nvm...
just keep reading the notes maybe will help....
Geo:
Sick and tired of doing Vegetation le la!
but still i need to do it...
Questions after question...
writing the same answer.... =.="
cannot take it anymore....
DnT:
A week more and i would have to submit the coursework...
but still i'm only 3/4 finish...
how?how?how?
I'm aiming an A2, but can i get it?
tsk..
School maybe a fun place for many people..
but exclude me...
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Work:
It's been 2months le...
i nvr work for 2months le....
I feel like going to work...
but the amount of stress and homework is stopping me...
i can find so much fun while working..
really wish i could go back and work...
One reason that i didn't work is the limited time i have...
the other reason is because i told "you" that i will stop working...
i will concentrate on my studies... and also at the same time...
waiting in front of the computer for you to come online...
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Love:
I know 'you' are unable to come online tat often...
but still i choose to wait for you...
i mean my words...
i know you dont know about this...
or most probably you may think that i'm just joking with you....
Friendly, cheerful is your character!
I am accepting who you are!
Many people tell me not to fall too deep...
but i ignore!
why?
i trust you!
i believe my eyes and what my senses tells me!
Seeing you happy, i'm happy either!
when you are sad, i can tell....
but when i'm sad, can you tell?
I really care for you, and you really am an important person in my life!
you've have made an impact!
But do you feel the same as me?
I know that i maybe loving you one-sided!
this my decision!
I will wait for you, and will always like you!
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There are times when i tried to ignore you...
i admit!
but whenever..
i'm that close to the door, was about to open it...
you pulled me back!!!
I felt happy... but i also felt heartbreaking?
why is this so
can oyu tell me?
if i have the courage to ask you, i would...
but sadly i dont have...);
I've tired!
i gave myself a chance......
it's now up to you,
whether you want to give me a chance, and also yourself a chance?
o,o
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Now what i want is...
You to stay cheerful!
Be healthy!
Concentrate on your studies!
And let nature takes its course!
Continue to chat with you and say 'hi' to you!
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T,T
no words can express
my love for you
Thursday, July 15, 2010
15.7.10
Hi, my blog viewers....
It's been quite sometime since i last post....
many things to say...
but dont know where to start.
Saw the previous post?
I will continue the story some other day...
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My studies were going smoothly....
I study constantly each day...
but i'm still afraid of going school...
no friends in school...
no teacher pay attention to me....
everyday sleep in class...
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Is this my life?
I hate my love life..
it sucks...
Why do other people can have a long lasting, sweet and romantic relationship....?
but i can't....
After my last broke up...
it's a hard one...
and i tell myself not to fall for any girls le...
But this year...
When i saw this girl....
I got an unique feeling...
She seems to be so special to me....
Sadly, till today... i still dont know what to do exactly...
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Escape or to stay put?
Escape, my heart breaks....
I hate people around me to leave....
but will any one feel the same as me, if i'm leaving?
I think nobody will care also....
I'm just a lonely man in this world....
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Stay put, i dont know what to do...
i like you, yes i know....
but when i know i cant have you...
i'm lost... in the 'woods'...
i wonder what's my next step is...?
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I loving you one-sided...
but do you care?
do you know?
I bet on my life, that you dont know....
You say my status all so emo de....
yes i admit!
but it's really how i feel....
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There are times you really make me very happy!
There are times which you also make me damn sad/emo....
ups and downs.....
so %#^$ $#%#@.........~!
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For three years, i did not get angry...
doesn't mean everything is fine...
i'm just pushing it down to the bottom of my heart...
tolerating every shit!
If i blows up this year... it will be history!
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I dont wish for much now...
All i want is,
you to be happy,
safe and sound,
healthy!!!
You will be my only close friend/ supersister!!!
No matter where i am...
Hell...or...heaven
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!Smile~always!
no words can express
my love for you